So emotional.
So full of thoughts, so full of feelings, so full of I have-no-idea-whats.
Will you last?
Will you stay?
Will you see me dead?
You say hate negative people?
As I, but sometimes I can't help but feel this way,
at times I can't control how I feel.
I need to pen this down or I will have insomnia.
You're on the phone but you won't reply me,
I know I have lost my chance by blabbering too much.
But fuck that.
Do not become the pathetic fool I once was.
The past is something I wish to forget and never have.
My existence is to bring as much happiness as I can to people that never felt that there was hope in their lives.
I want to make a difference and be someone who is important and worth their while.
So am I worth your while ?
Or I just have bad karma;)?
I really can't decide.
HehXD



Just realised I don't have any LOL
Well I hope 2012 is going to be a good year.
Sincerely,
I do hope.
Looking back at how I've been...
I have really done many foolish things.
Jumping quick into situations without finding out the cost of the fall..
Said many things that I regret but at the same time, I don't regret them.
Cause I have learnt, what and what not to say.
Tact , they call it.
But I choose not to be tactful as schools the only place where you can say whatever you want cause
yeah damn right its the final year I hope it gets through you're thick skulls that you're not going to
meet another person like me to tell you what you really should do instead of a backstabbing bitch
where you can meet everywhere you go ain't it right? ;)
And also...Talking about things..
I know that it doesn't show but I'm not as childish as I seem to be -.-
Freak you like seriously cause that proves you don't know me well enough.

2012 Resolutions:
1) To know what love is really about
2)TO set realistic goals;)
3)To really enjoy my life:D
4)Learn to balance the shit I have in my life.
5)Always do my best.

Lastly..
6) To be happy always.

Thats all for now!
Really look forward to a better tomorrow.




His doing it right ;)
Take some time to see this. REALLY WORTH IT.



Are you really worth my time?
Are you really worth the effort?
Why didn't you keep your promise?
Why didn't you take the time?
Why?
Was it all really worth the tears?
Was it?

This song gives me musical frisson *shivers*




http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2079098/Ben-Breedlove-YouTube-Video-Teenager-shares-near-death-experiences-dies.html
This guy...he is really what you call strong.

Unlike the people nowadays, so easily upset, so easily saying they are strong.
Really? Do you really feel that you're as strong as you say you are?
Or is it you're just an attention seeking person?
People who have worst situations then you are much better off then you are.
But who am I to judge?
Thing is,
Sometimes... People don't reflect.
I hope seeing this might help you have some clarity in thought.
That aside,
This guy is going to be my inspiration to keep moving forwards.
When times get bad I would think of him.
If I'm alive, I get to change my fate.

Although..I really kind of feel that this world, my generation in particular ...
We all have some kind of problems,
saying how imperfect we are,
cutting and all that?
We like to escape from our problems.
So it seems that many can't face it [plus most of the time the problem is caused by the decisions we make] and that's why we commit suicide and cut and all that to temporarily take our mind off things.
I get why we do it but its just not right to harm our body.
We only have one and we should really treasure it.
And being strong doesn't mean you have to tell the world about it.
I mean like who tells people that?
Getting over a breakup or rejection , yes I know how hard it is but life is moving with or without you. You need to get over it.
Don't regret missing something while wallowing in the past.
That is not what life is about.
Take a chance, LIVE.

Kinda abit off topic but who cares? This is my diary after all, my thoughts are mine alone.
You do not need to agree or disagree:)

Labels: Inspirational person

Haven't bought my gifts yet!!
*panics * ahhhhh
Working till Christmas eve n Tmr is my off day better shop or stuff Tmr like really Tmr!
Anyway had my nails done :D
love the Scorpio pattern sooo much !
Anyway have a Merry Christmas Everyone!!!:D



Been so busy lately! Working and doing Christmas cards in the sidelinesXD maybe I have found someone ? Here are some pictures :D
At least that I have in my iPhone (:

Oh and prom was great!!! Totally fun if ppl had joined in the dance and got high!XD got a mug as a present from the school(:

And I wore the yuki cosplayed as shown in the pics! Forced by Chloe an Melanie who is in the picture with mexD

Also went to Suntec city took some Christmas trees decoration and did some Xmas and NY wishes on that ball that is seen in many shopping malls!

So that's my update for now.. Will change my playlist soon:D

Labels: Über boring life

You all should seriously watch Cinderella story series well so called "series"...
First :" A Cinderella Story " ft. Hilary Duff and Chad Michael Murray
This is a normal story(:
Second: "Another Cinderella Story 2" ft Selena Gomez
This is a dancing story(:(:
Thirdly( the latest one this year ): " A Cinderella Story: once upon a song "
And this is a singing storyXD freaking cool<3 the lead guys for all the shows are so freaking hot!!

Labels: Cinderella Movies

I wish I could be Cinderella..I don't know I don't wish to live?







Been sitting here thinking what I bitch I used to be...
But then...I think again and realise I am still a bitch LOL.
Maybe I've become a tiny bit better[or maybe not..hahahaha]
Here's hoping;P

Besides the point,
I feel like I can't do this anymore..
I can't carry on! T_T

Sink me at the river, at dawn..

I wonder hows my life like to others and I really wonder what others think of me..
Maybe they correspond with mine thoughts about myself haha!

I bet no one checks blog nowadays as Tumblr & twitter has taken over ..
Its really convenient but still I don't need to know your freaking thoughts every second of the day or some status scolding someone..shouldn't you just tell them upfront? Misunderstandings solved be honest about your feelings and stop bitching behind others[me included XD]

Sometimes I wish I was never born.




An extremely cute and soothing and upbeat song :D